yesterday i realized that my high school time will last in almost 2 months. never imagine that it will end so fast, i can remember the first day of school! yah, and 12th grade is the fastest time, maybe because everybody is busy and we never feel tha time went by so fast. i really like the time i spent at 12th grade, i got a good class and good classmates although some of them are annoying, i never had a big problem with them. and the best thing in this year is the friendship. found new friends, got close with them.
yah when i talked about what will it be in the frist year @ uni with my friend, i suddenly cried. ehm, we will go to diff place, and i will feel lost. she wont be beside me to hear my stories, like she used to. and she also said that first year would be very hard. yah, i know i still have about two months in high school, but two months is very fast!!!!! T.T

SAYA SENANG
FULL OF HAPPINESS
well the main reason why i feel happy right now is ive been accepted by ntu!
jadi kalo nus ga dapet, gue bakal bener2 masuh ntu
em its like a dream. masalahnya banyak banget yang nbgak dapet yang menurut gue mereka lebih pantes dari gue. karena usaha mereka sampe bolos-bolos segala, sampe ada masalah ntu2an di sekolah, libur dikorbankan. nah gue ngeles 8 hari doang itu aja kalo udh mau jem 9 pasti udah ngobrol2 sama nad, sama bola.
SENANG. tapi jujur gue juga sedih. 2 orang temen baek gue ga dapet. hm, terus mreka blg, teruskan mimpiku. DUH
dan gue legaaa banget, ada satu beban yang terlepas dari pundak
terus gue seneng banget sama ucapan temen gue tadi, bener2 menyemangati kok. sampe mewek

"true friends stab you in the front"
-oscar wilde-
menggambarkan apa yang baru saja gue alami dekat2 ini. almost perfectly. not being stabbed, ehm lebih ke, mendengar pernyataan mnyakitkan soal lo dari seorang teman. yang selama ini belom pernah ada orang yang ngomong, ato mgkn ga ada yng berani ngomong. and it was like being shot and the bullet hit you right in the heart. tapi itu jadi refleksi sendiri, kalo selama ini gue kurang menyadari hal yang satu ini. well honestly mungkin banyak banget yang ga gue sadari selama ini. and thanks yah for saying those words (i cried that time, when she said that). hohoh. and thanks for understanding me, keliatan kok, apalagi kalo di kelas. ohohoh. tau apa yang ga gue suka. eheheheh.. kata2nya ga bakal gue lupain sampe nanti, dek!

ehm intinya, perkataan seorang temen bisa lebih nyakitin daripada musuh lo sendiri. awalnya memang menyakitkan, tapi harus bisa menerima kenyataan yang ada, dan memperbaiki diri, ga cuma nyalahin orang lain aja sih. ga nyangka, gue juga pernah ngomong yang menyakitkan2 seperti itu. hhehehe.

hate school. sekolah bener2 nyebelin
ulangan tiap hari yang mmebuat nilai meluncur dengan hebatnya. resek
bahkan nilai gue ada yg ga kompeten (dan sepertinya gue tenang2 aja sih)
argh
tambah lagi misa. duh pengen cepet2 hRI rebo, misa, dan ga ada beban lg. jadi ga usah pulang sore setiap hari. ga usah kesel gr2 misa. ga usah berhadapan sama anak2 itu. oknum2 tertentu sih. duh.
gue lagi berusaha biar ga cepet kesel nih
semoga berhasil drh
abis akhoir2 ini sering banget kesel sama orang. ga baik itu. pengennya sih jadi org yang nyantai.
argh
pusing2
pengen liburan deh
bahkan skrg gue mulai kehilangan semnagat belajar. HUHIUHU